Tarot Studies for Fun and Prophet

 I'm going through some huge life changes right now, and yesterday/into this morning I slowed down long enough to realize how disjointed I was feeling. It's been a while (since the eclipse, in fact) since I've checked in with my intuition, that darker, quieter side of me, so this morning I drew three cards.

Normally, when I do a three card draw it comes out very prescriptive: Mind, Body, Spirit. Today, I decided to read pretty free form, and I like the results. 

I used the Japaridze Tarot - a deck I'm still getting used to, but it felt right to me today. 

Queen of Tides - Reversed: My emotions are all turned around right now - but that's ok. I gain grace and beauty from my deep feelings. If I allow my intuition to come forward more, if I cultivate compassion, it will balance some of the intellectual pressure I'm feeling now. I need to right the Queen of Tides within myself.

Stranger of Tides: This felt like a very dominant card in the spread. It speaks to putting on masks, putting on a front to dive in to competition. I've been feeling so much pressure to be as good or better than everyone else, and I've been feeling so self-conscious of being judged, I've become detached from myself. The anxiety and ambition can read as aggression - I need to chiiiiiiiiill. 

Seven of Gardens: At the same time that I'm feeling disconnected, I am harvesting a lot. And that's a little off-putting. I'm discovering new talents, things that I used to feel confident about that I'm not anymore, and it's happening very naturally. It's also happening very fast. I need to take some time to relax and enjoy the harvest.

And also self care. Of course. But it's so easy to forget about that when I'm running so hard. But really. It's ok to snuggle a kitty, watch horrible tv, and knit every once in a while.